So, what’s today again? The fourteenth? Oh damn its V-day. That horrid, horrid day that I have to go through alone every year since I was born (wow, I’m such a loser). But for the last couple of years it hasn’t been that bad, since I look forward to K-day the next day. And when I say K-day, I’m talking about Kusano’s day, and this year it happens to be his 21^st birthday.

Oh my god, he’s 21. (WHY ARE THEY ALL GROWING UP WITHOUT ME?)

But congrats Kusa, because you’re even legal in America now (try not to party too much when you’re over there.)

 

Dear Kusano,

 

So this is the second time I’m writing something for your birthday, the first time being this day last year. I don’t even really remember what I wrote about last year… probably about a whole bunch of mushy crap that I write about all the time and how I’m always whining that I’ll never get to see you and how much I love you (even though you don’t even know I exist) and stuff. But oh well, it’s always interesting to write on your birthday because it always makes me think about why and how much I love you.

 

I’m sitting in the same room, in front of the same computer, stuck in the same country, still doing nothing with my life, exactly the same as last year when I was writing my letter to you. And after a whole year of fan-girling you, I’m still wondering when you’re coming back. Even when I’m watch Uchi’s first time on Shounen Club since four (oh god) years ago, I’m still screaming at my computer going “WHERE THE FUCK IS KUSANO??? (#*%*(&@$!)@%.” And to tell you the truth, the time between your 20^th birthday and your 21^st birthday, it was exceptionally hard to fan-girl Johnny’s Entertainment in general. Nothings new, NewS has been the same for over a year now, KAT-TUN’s just plain weird now, nothing’s going on with HSJ either. WHAT DO I DO? I’ve watched every drama, every Shounen Club, every clip, every fucking concert, I don’t know what to do now.

 

And what I especially don’t know what to do is how to keep my fan-girling love for you. HOW DO YOU FAN-GIRL FOR AN IDOL THAT HASN’T BEEN IN THE BUSINESS FOR THREE YEARS ALREADY?

 

Ah, basically after all that ranting, my overall message is that I want you back.

 

Now.

 

Rumor is that you’re already back in Japan and media and Johnny is planning out your return and everything. How many months ago was that said? I don’t even remember. There’s even rumors about you joining KAT-TUN.

 

…WHAT? (lol, KHAT-TUN :D)

 

Which is most likely not gonna happen since a) WHAT?, and b) you’d get killed. Literally. I mean, do you know how crazy K-T fans are? WHAT IF THEY PUT GLUE IN YOUR DRINKS?! (it’s possible. Go ask Yun-ho.)

 

But after I read about this rumor, it got me thinking and, MY advice is to quit. You know, if you were to join KAT-TUN or whatever. I don’t think its worth it, and I know that KAT-TUN needs some fixing up (DID YOU HEAR ABOUT KOKI LOL), but to intrude into a group like that is just weird.

 

Like, (dare I say it) rejoining NEWS. I mean, I’ve read a lot of polls and forums and threads and hate-memes, and I kind of agree and I don’t think that going back to NEWS would be the greatest decision (even though its not really up to you, but whatev’s). I guess NEWS is fine as a six member group and there’s really no need for a seventh member. It’d make sense if Uchi went back to Kanjani8 (because how can it be Kanjani8 when there’s only seven members??), but you (and Uchi) rejoining NEWS would make things awkward. It’s the truth, even though eight-member-NewS-fans (like me) don’t want to admit it.

 

Lol, this really isn’t a birthday letter to you, but more like a random rant letter haha. But I really don’t know what to write, because all I’d be doing is saying how much I love you “because of blah blah blah, you’re so cute, blah blah blah, marry me”, etc. Which is exactly what every fan-girl says when they’re talking about their favorite idol.

 

But what I want to say is that even though in the past year, I’ve fallen I love with Miura Haruma, TAKA, and Junno/Maru, I’m still proud to say that you are still my favorite. You are still the one I love the most. Even if Haruma is really, really gorgeous.

 

And even when I’m having a very intense conversation about Johnny’s with my friend (which is mostly about KAT-TUN), somehow I ninja my way into adding your name in there and then I can’t stop talking about you. My friend gets annoyed a lot (because she’s rambling on and on about how much she loves Ueda, I just can’t help saying “if you can talk about Ueda, WHY CAN’T I TALK ABOUT KUSANO??”).

 

Ok, so I’m wondering if this is enough yet, but I’m hungry so it’s enough. Haha.

 

I love you, Kusano, and I hope that I’ll be able to see you one day and I hope that one day you can see my love for you. And I hope that you know that I’m one of the many fans that are still supporting you and are waiting for you to come back.

 

Thank you, for giving me so much happiness. I’ve never been happier without you.

 

From a fan,

 

Ange113.

Here's ikimono gakari's Kaeri Taku Natta yo, the song that reminds me of Kusano more than anything.


Kaeri Taku Natta yo -acoustic version- - Ikimono Gakari

Oh goodness. I was unable to do my usual celebration for Massu this year since I was at this all-viet con. And now look, I even forgot it was Shige's birthday tomorrow.

I FORGOT SHIGE'S BIRTHDAY???? WHAT?

Okay, this never ever happens. Because Shige is one of my favorites. And so is Massu. Someone smack me on the head, please?

Anyways, since I will pretty much be busy, I will write my usual letter (that I haven't done since Pi's).

MY LOVELY LOVELY SHIGE,

I know that I often mixed you up for Kusa at the beginning of my fangirling days. And I'm sorry, since you guys look NOTHING like each other. But you know, you were the one that I noticed first (minus Massu). So please, don't even START on being "unnoticeable" , because out of all the NewS members in the Kibou~Yell PV, you were DEF the cutest (in my opinion).

I really love Shige for various reasons. More like, what is there NOT to love about you? You're smart, pretty, funny, talented, and downright adorkable. I really wished people would've have known you sooner. I wished Johnny pimped you out a long time ago instead of only recently. Because really, what a waste. Do you know how much fans wasted in their fangirling careers not loving you? I love fangirling you. It really is my joy in life to fangirl you (OK, I KNOW, I HAVE NO LIFE.) But still.

In the future, I hope to see you more in the media. Maybe a leadrole in a drama, or maybe if Johnny would stop being so stubborn, HE'D GIVE NEWS THEIR OWN SHOW ALREADY. Or even a solo photoshoot in a famous magazine would be nice, too. I wish I was able to go to your butai, since it's one of your very (very) rare solo things you get. Well, even if I go, I wouldn't be able to understand anything you're saying, but w/ev's because even if I'm just standing near you and I would be able to here you talk, I'd be happy. And maybe after the show's over, I'd come and stalk you backstage :D

The "phase" I loved most about Shige was probably NEWS' return. Around Hoshi wo Mezashite. OMG, YOU WERE SO HOT!!!!<3 You're long hair fit so perfect with your face and you're smile was the bigger than ever. When you first got your mohawk haircut, I literally screamed. WHY, SHIGGY, WHY? YOU WERE SO BEAUTIFUL (not that I'm saying you're not beautiful now...). BUT SERIOUSLY, WTF. haha.

I don't think I can emphasize more on how beautiful Shige is. Really.  You're so beautiful that it's hard not to fall in love with you more when I see your face. God, it even feels like I'm cheating on Kusano. LOL. But I hope Shige will continue to become this great, famous idol that everyone will come to love. I hope that people will see all the hard work you put into becoming such a great idol and give you the love that you deserve. Shige, continue to break all those hearts. Gambatte, we're all rooting for ya.

To the greatest prince of all, 誕生日おめでとう。



&hearts;

SUMMARY. 2008. SUMMARY 2008.
SUMMARY 2008.
I'M GOING TO JAPAN THIS SUMMER EVEN IF I'M GONNA HAVE TO KILL SOMEONE TO GET THERE.

And then there's Gokusen Movie.
Oh wait, let me emphasize,
GOKUSEN MOVIE.
WITH OGURI<3333, JIN, KAME, AND TEPPEI.

PLUS 9NINE WITH MY ULTRA FAVORITE ACTRESS, YUI.

I'm supposed to be sulking right now, since the guy I've liked for almost 2 years is leaving. (Until the summer.)

Oh goodness. There were so many posts about Yamapi's tanjoubi that I was gonna puke. I did make a wallpaper for his birthday, but I thought a lot of people were probably sick of seeing all the icon/wall/graphic post of Pi, so I decided to post it some other day. 

Anyways, back to PI's day. 


Hm... there's a lot I can say about Yamapi, I still can't come up with ideas about what to write about. Sure, I love Yamapi like every other fangirl out there (because who can't love him? The boy is awesome) but I can't say that he's one of my favorites either. When it comes to NewS (and when I capitalize the 'N' and the 'S', I'm talking about the 8 original members), Kusaachi definately comes first, then probably Shige, then maybe Kei-chan or Massu (but then again, after seeing Ryo's Waratte Iitomo, I'm starting to have second thoughts cuz ryo-chan is really, really REALLY hot) so basically what I'm trying to point out is that Yamapi isn't one of my favorites. 

But I gotta give him creds though, because he was the first exposure of NewS I got (from Stand Up!! which is like, my favorite drama btw) and damn he was cute. If I hadn't noticed that "OMG KEN-KEN'S IN THAT BAND", I probably wouldn't have got into NewS. And out of all the things in the world that I regret doing the most, getting into NewS was DEFINATELY not one of them. 

But I do think that Pi gets TOO MUCH ATTENTION (-cough-koreatrip-cough-), I mean really, there's more to NewS then just Yamapi. I tend to think that some of the other members are more talented than him. Because Tego can sing better than him. Notti dances better than him (in my opinion, anyway), Ryo-chan acts better than him (well, it depends), and there are many times when Kei-chan and Massu are wayyyy cuter/hotter than Y-pi. 

What is this? WHY THE HELL IS HE SO POPULAR?! 

:is something I always ask, but then again, I can't help but scream when he pops up in the screen when I'm watching one of his dramas, or flail at the sound of him singing his one solo part in Devil or Angel. Then I remember why so many fans love him so much. Yamapi is breath-taking. The boy was born to be an idol. Which is really all I can say about him. 

Hmph, Tanjoubi omedetou, Pi. You're 23 and getting older by the second, so enjoy your rapid fan-girls before time runs out. 

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On other news (hehe, pun.), NEWS's very own Tegomass came out with a new song! God, its gorgeous. Like, more gorgeous than the first time I heard Kiss~Kaerimichi no Love Song. Because DAMN this song is addicting. and beautiful. and awesome. and all of the above all over again. In one day, I already listened to it for 97 times. Which isn't very much, since the song is only -looks at ipod- 1:32 minutes. Which is TOTALLY not fair. 
I WANT MORE TEGOMASS. 
they never ever seemed to fail me. 

AIAI KASA~!

-Prays to Tego God that it becomes a single-